I was never the type of girl that acted her age. For someone's who's 21, I've accomplished alot compared to kids my age. I've managed to get my associate's degree, work.volunteer experience, and just got into my nursing major :) Getting into my major was something I KNEW i had to accomplish and nursing is something i've always been passionate about. I've sacrificed the heavy norm social life, limited myself w. pressures, have had my values challenged and gave up someone i love dearly. (thats another story).
I knew nursing school would be the hardest thing/work I'll ever do in my life. I'm aware of the increasing sacrifices I would have to make. Just as long as I have that one day to relax, I'm fine. It's not easy but I don't complain and i'm loving every minute of it no matter how hard it gets. I've been so emotionally drained lately and I don't know why. Many of my colleagues are 2nd career people who have experienced life, whereas I'm a enthusiastic puppy ready to conquer and provide care for patients. Compared to them, I haven't experienced life yet. My colleague told me the reason why I've been feeling this way is b/c I'm CHANGING and starting to experience life in my own way and becoming to be an adult. I'm constantly asking myself question of why/how i get here. I look at my friends and think i'm weird b/c iI have different priorities. My definition of happiness is spending good quality time w. family and CLOSE friends, not clubbing/drinking. My definition of love is someone who unconditionally loves/supports you and I would be willing to wait for something true than date a guy who is sweet to me. I'm disappointed at my friend (who's also made it in) b/c i FEEL that she doesn't understand the importance of this. She's like those typical 21 yr olds that STILL think they can balance nursing AND a social life. When you're an adult and given an opportunity like this, you don't take it for granted. I'm in a class of people who don't care if they have a social life, they're happy that they're in and i feel the same way. Unlike, "aww i don't go out anymore and have fun booo hooo" - suck it up, you're an adult and thats what life is. You made a choice when you decided you want to be a nurse.
WHY AM I FEELING THIS WAY? Help...i'm a confused 21 yr old kid.
Emotionally overwhelmed because I'm changing/growing?
this is what becoming/beign an adult is all about. you have to sort out your priorities and become more responsible. if it means you have to sacrifice socializing than you have to bite the bullet. you choose your own path and right now your priorities are organized and right where they should be. you can still have a social life but it wont take up 60% of your lfie like it used to.
let me know if this helps.
Reply:it shows that you are mature and not childish. you could make your own decision and choose your life. it's good for you to know what you want in your life. just relax and don't care about all bad stuffs that your friends said. enjoy your life and be happy with that. the most important thing in this world is knowing what to do with your own life, not because others' told you so.
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